Reader Lynn was brave enough to comment:
I enjoy reading your journal. I just can't imagine as a mother not having faith and hope in God. Just curious--- what do you think happens after death? I know that especially with my children, I have to feel like God is watching over them and there is an afterlife because in this world there are no daily guarantees. Letting them go out of the house and drive is hard enough but to think there is nothing after this life would be so depressing. Just my thoughts, of course.
I like you Reader Lynn. I like you alot. People can be so askeered of me sometimes. Alas, you are not. Also, your question seemed to be sincere.
Maybe. Maybe not.
Here's my thing. I am very cynical. I question a whole lot of things. And seeing as how I come from a mixed-religion marriage (Catholic and Lutheran) I grew up with two different religious doctrines. Not that the Catholics really accepted me seeing as how my mom married a Lutheran who'd been Divorced. But, hey, they willingly baptized me and confirmed me so I got in through the back door. (Don't go there with Catholics and Back Doors, 'kay?) But if we were to ask the Pope, he'd turn his back on me. I'm sure of it. I'm a Divorced Person. Then again, I didn't get married in a Catholic Church so perhaps that one never counted at all.
Anyway. You'll think this is funny but my children are baptized. My friend's dad was an Episcopalian Minister. Having grown up in the Catholic church and attended a Catholic school for a couple of years, there's something inside of me that made me get my children baptized, no matter what religion, so they wouldn't be banished to Baby Limbo were something to go wrong before they could make up their own minds.
Why is it that I picture Baby Limbo looking like a Bowling Alley?
Anyway...Because I have alot of questions about the fact that there are oodles of religions and beliefs, how can one of them be so right, I decided that:
I Just Don't Know. Thor thinks that when we all get to the Pearly Gates, God will say "The Right Religion is Greek Orthodox! Buh-bye to the rest of you!" Silly Thor. He believes and that's about as blasphemous as he'll get.
I Won't Know Until I, Personally, Am Dead.
Is there an afterlife?
I don't know. It would be cool if there was. Maybe?
If there is, will I go?
Maybe. Maybe not.
If you have to Come to Jesus to be allowed to go, there's a whole lot of us who won't be going who've lead very "Christian-like" lives. While, at the same time, there will be a whole lot of Creepy People who haven't lead moral lives yet get to go because they said outloud that They Believe. Maybe. Maybe not.
I have issues with people who believe in Their Way and Their Way Only. I have issues with people who Can't Shut Up About How Christian They Are.
I lead a pretty moral life up here in Minnesota. Except that blaspheme issue. I just can't accept for a fact that there may be a God. I hope there is. But really, with how fucked up this world is, I'd have to say that God should be doing a better job if he's so damn powerful.
I don't get this Depressing Thing about it at all. I have an incredibly wonderful life right here. If there were an afterlife, it might just be the icing. I make Good Choices and I live every day like it's a Gift. I'm not waiting for things to be better. I'm making them better all the time.
And here's where I get really snippy: I believe it's my job to look after my children myself. God's got more important things to do. I just need to use my Free Will to make Good Choices.
Same thing with people asking God for things. God's got too much on his hands to be satisfying your needs. Do you have a roof over your head? A job? Loved ones? Food in your belly? A Maul to hang out at? If so? Stop being so damned selfish and taking up all of God's time and use those prayers of yours for anything but yourself!
So, yeah. There you go. I am not one of those God-Fearing people, afraid of eternal hell. I am one of those people who is apparently waiting for my Personal Invitation from God Himself. Or Herself. Or Itself.
I do worry sometimes about that Hell thing though. I didn't get Nothing out of my Catholic Catechism.
Thanks for asking Reader Lynn.
11:42 a.m. - November 06, 2006
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